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Synthesis of ENTJ and INFP relationships

Last night I had a very profound dream. I was at a fancy dinner birthday party for Leonardo Dicaprio. Something happened with him and he went on a FarCry3 style shooting rampage killing many of the guests at the party. His girlfriend was injured and dying but somehow had no bullet wounds, and came over to me lying down and putting her head on my chest. She was amazed and in awe at how peaceful the energy was at my heart/chest chakra. She was so happy that she could be near my inner essence and connect with it before and as she was passing from this life.

I had this tremendous feeling of expansion and love as a stabilizing force emanating from  my chest that I became aware of as she did this. Several times in the last few months I have been babysitting my best friends puppy. I would take a nap in the afternoon and she would jump up on the couch and curl up between my heart and solar plexus chakra and go to sleep. She would go to the same place every time feeling safe and secure, much like the girl in my dream.

Often I don’t realize my own power, and it takes others to recognize it in me me before I became aware of it. I felt like my dream was trying to teach me a lesson to tune into this more as my central source of power and connection with myself and others.

Later in the evening myself and Leo started becoming good friends. I was a bit baffled as to why he would want to be friends with me but he had this vibe similar to an INFP friend of mine where there is the unspoken mutual admiration of who each other are at a deep level. This always surprises me and many times I’m not exactly aware of it. Growing up I never really had anyone that admired or appreciated me for who I am in this way.

Enter INFPs. My best friend and girlfriend are INFPs and many of my other friends are INFPs as well. Just being around INFPs it feels like there is this mutual understanding that occurs at an emotional level. INFPs appreciate me for my practical intellectual iNtuitive self. And I appreciate them for their robust emotional idealism.

In the Seth Material, Seth often makes the recommendation that humans should strive to be like the “Practical-Idealist”. I feel that the ENTJ-INFP relationship dynamic is something that fosters that in the ultimate kind of way.

For me the most important lesson and learning from INFPs is being emotionally centered in myself. There is a safety/security a type of stability and practical emotional framework in myself that INFPs desire. I have to recognize and nurture my own strength and use that as my healthy attractor for meaningful relationships.

As a kid my mother appreciated me for my cognitive intellect and this is something I learned to take pride in and build up my self-esteem and self-worth around. Then for most of my life I have used that as a template to form connections and relationships with people on this superficial ego-type level.

The most important aspect in connection and relationships is not so much what you say/think, but rather how you feel and where those emotions are coming from. With some people in some friendships, silence is awkward. But when both people tune in to their emotions, there is a level of appreciation and communication that transcends the mind/ego. A deeper more meaningful connection is forged.

The Samurai Game – review from a Daimyo

I recently had the opportunity to participate in The Samurai Game developed by George Leonard. The following are some of my thoughts as the respective leader (Daimyo in Japanese) of my team.

*Spoiler alert.* Minor details of the game will be discussed. Every game will operate in likely vastly different ways depending on the facilitator. Thus reading this is unlikely to give you any advanced competitive knowledge.

Being picked as a leader was a rather surreal moment for me. It is done non-verbally and is done through an eventual consensus like process where everyone must look and face the person they would wish to lead. Only one person can be chosen. Having nearly 20 people all silently starting at me felt somewhat like this perhaps:

picked as leader game of thronesMy greatest lesson learned as the Daimyo is that I need to articulate precisely how it is that I wish to lead and what the expectations of my team is. Due to the way the samurai system was framed beforehand, many people thought I should rule single-handedly with no input from them. Some people thought of themselves as pawns, and that I was the master chess player. This is NOT how I like to lead. Ultimately I do like to make all the final decisions however I want feedback and opinions and ideas all the way there. I see my role as a leader more as an ultimate decision maker, not all knowing micro-managing god.

On the other hand some of the very outspoken women on my team, just begin throwing suggestions and ideas in, and I very much appreciate when people take a participatory role in helping things out. I very much dislike micromanaging so the auto self-delegation was nice.

The responsibility of leading I find stressful in some regards, and I got to explore what that is like. I am scared of being wrong, and most of all terrified of hurting peoples feelings. This is a big one for me and one I am going to have to get over.

Also I realized I feel most comfortable leading when I understand all the variables very well, and have time to think and make decisions. In the Samurai game very little information is given about what to expect in terms of battles so it’s impossible to create a strategy. Much of the battle is up to the individual team members so as a leader I spend most of my time watching.

I realized some people make better leaders in situations where there is a lot of unpredictability and spontaneity. I feel that ESFJs or ESTJs are better suited to those roles. Those kind of leadership roles are more fitting of the “captain/Lieutenant/commander” title. ENTJs really are Field Marshals the ones who have the highest rank and captains report too. In essence I as ENTJ am a better leader of leaders rather than a leader of the bottom ranks in the field on the ground.

Figuring out that distinction was a nice lesson for me. I still need to practice my “captain” leadership more though. When I am in that role I like to lead from the front, but the structure of the game had me leading from behind. I realized I quickly get activated as I try to account for all the variables. This quickly can overwhelm a person and dissociate them. Being relaxed and being ok with making mistakes is a necessity.

The Fates/facilitators tested me hard by being downright rude and challenging me on every little thing, demanding perfection. They were trying to overwhelm me on purpose to see if they could crack me! Not cool, but I saw through their game and didn’t care.

Two rules of the game I found particularly annoying was one you are not allowed to smile and two you are not allowed to look the facilitators (the fates) in the eyes or catch their gaze. Doing either of these things would result in severe consequences of some kind. These rules are in keeping with the overall style of the game adhering loosely to traditional Japanese Samurai honor code. However they also reflect Japanese society at large.

I have always had a love-hate relationship with Japanese culture. I took Japanese in high school and learned to read and write in their two basic alphabets. I have also traveled to Japan to experience their culture first hand visiting the largest feudal castle on the planet and seeing all the major sites. Japan is an incredibly xenophobic and homogeneous society and can be quite racist. Startlingly so. Seeing non-Japanese people walking the streets of Tokyo is a rarity considering many of the other major cities international I have been to in the world.

I have always admired their technical expertise, attention to detail and travelling there is a bit like travelling to the future. Their society on the surface seems Utopian and perfectly run. Everyone is overly polite and courteous. Japanese culture also has strong similarities to my ethnic German heritage in terms of emphasis on reason/intellect and order. As myers-briggs archetypes both cultures are overtly archetypal INTJ and ISTJ. Those archetypes are the cultural standard which everything in therms of value, integrity and honor is measured against.

Which brings me to the things I dislike about Japanese culture. Japanese people as a generalization have a bit of a superiority complex. With honor comes great pride, however a pride based primarily on negating emotions and adherence to order and logic to an extreme. Japanese people publicly display very little emotion, although you can tell behind those faces the repressed emotions are taking their toll on their collective souls. It is unquestionably the most emotionally repressive society on earth. Becoming angry in public is like losing face. It is simply something you just do not do. Unlike in north america public displays of emotion are seen very frequently.

Japanese culture is incredibly hierarchical. The flip side of honor is shame, and those two always go hand in hand. Shame is feared very strongly. A friend of mine who lives in Japan told me how kids in one grade simply do not make friends with kids in the next grade. It is unacceptable to make friends across even simple differences such as age by a couple of years. Paradoxically in a country jam packed with people, isolation and loneliness are rampant. Talking to strangers is very, very rarely done. Thus people suffer greatly, to the point where Japan has one of the highest suicide rates in the world. Their honor system is killing them….

Back to the game. Leaders are expected to rule their teams with an iron fist. In fact the Fates frame it this way, by giving in the instructions often somewhat ambiguous terms and allowing no room for questions or clarification. This often giving rise to confusion later in the game. There are too many rules for any person to remember 100% which breeds frustration. I believe this is done on purpose.

Being as this game was developed by an american, the Fates acted more like angry temperamental american military commanders than Japanese anything I have ever seen. I even trained in Japanese swordsmanship briefly many years ago and the way the Fates behaved themselves was characteristicly NOT-Japanese in any way. Which royally pissed me off. I have zero respect for that kind of taunting disrespectful behavior.

For a game billed on as principled on honor the Fates acted altogether dis-honorably and on purpose. This hypocrisy among others annoyed me deeply. The examples being set were conflicting.

The honor-shame system does still exist in Japanese society and while it has certain romantic elements to it, it also has serious disadvantages. The recent Fukushima nuclear disaster is a case in point. Japanese society and its organizations are structured in the same way the game is in that you do NOT question authority and do NOT give advice to authority. Leaders rule dictatorially and fear of shame keeps everyone in their place. Needless to say this bodes very poorly for bottom to top lines of communication and feedback, because the flow of information typically only goes one way. From top to bottom.

This can cause fatal mistakes to occur, as is VERY evident in the game. Ideas of honor get wrapped up in this philosophy and all kinds of conflicting viewpoints come to the forefront. Do you act according to personal ideas of honor to self? Do you act of honor to your leader? Or some other imagined abstract ideal? Do you die for the greater good or not? Is family honor greater than society at large?

gattling gun last samurai

The film The Last Samurai was referenced many times throughout the program, and the final battle is one scene that always stuck out in my mind. In it the “last” samurai are mercilessly decimated by machine guns having come with mere swords and horses to do battle. The big question for me always has been; is running fearlessly and suicidally straight into machine gun fire and subsequently dying honorable or just plain stupid?

The biggest dilemma that typically comes up for people in the game was the question of is it honorable to exploit an opponents weakness? Most people would likely say no, they want things to be fair. But when in human history has WAR been about fairness? What about life?

The mixed martial arts systems I personally have trained in took the opposite stance in that they trained me to exploit weakness rather than to fight “fairly”. In my quest to discover the most effective combat systems in the world the Japanese due to their very rigid thought systems which made them predictable in battle was one of the worst out there.

Japanese Karate has got to be one of the least effective combat systems in the world and also the most rigid. Combat is inherently unpredictable so adaptability and creativity may be more important than anything else. Most military systems involve extreme forms of self-discipline which is a double edged sword in that if that kind of linear thinking is carried forward in life/combat/war in general it’s going to fail pretty quickly. There are some great concepts in Aikido, however you don’t see it being used to win MMA tournaments. It is the type of system that only works in highly controlled predictable environments where your opponent only comes at you in one specific way.

So the game enforces linear style samurai thought, and then throws a punch of spontaneous elements at you. It’s a contradiction in terms and the biggest flaw of the game.

Japanese people have proven themselves not to be a very adaptable culture. They progressed really well technologically when it was largely linear logical straight forward progress, but recently have suffered greatly in terms of creative innovation. Samsung now makes the best electronics instead of Sony, and Hyundai makes the best quality cars instead of toyota. Japan is falling behind quickly, they are losing in terms of creative adaptability.

Sometimes I wonder if they even invented many profound things to begin with. It seems they merely improved on outside ideas because nearly all their technology from the combustion engine to the integrated circuit came from the western world. Even their exceptional quality they have a reputation for, was largely fostered and due to a white dude (Demming) going over there after the war and helping them out.

The structure of the samurai game did NOTHING to foster creative adaptability in terms of its philosophical framework. The samurai/Japanese philosophy works against the very process of the game as it still does in their society. It’s a society that at the cultural level is exceptionally resistant to change.

This was my experience in the Samurai game and actual independent samurai combat training. The general samurai philosophy is one that is counter-productive to nurturing creativity.

It is why the Fukushima nuclear disaster has no end in sight, and why the countries total debt to gdp ratio is in excess of 500% with complete denial of the public and government at large. Fiscally Japan is about to hit a massive brick wall and almost no one sees it coming. (watch Kyle Bass lecture on it)

One thing I noticed was the Samurai “code of honor” put at the front of the room with its rules had at least two rules that took the form of negations. I don’t remember what they were but an example it would be something like “Do no evil”. Which is a terrible rule, in that in order to not do evil one has to think about what it is to do evil, and then to not do that which one is thinking of. The mind works best when given rules in the positive such as “Do Good”.

In the end my team had the most people standing. The opposing Daimyo was given an opportunity (after having declined seppuku several times) for one last chance to face myself in battle. I had the option of accepting or declining. Accepting meant he could still win, declining I would give up the “highest samurai” honor of the ability to commit seppuku (ritual suicide). I gladly gave up that honor as a gigantic fuck you to the samurai honor system and declined.

After all was said and done many people came up to me and complimented my leadership. However, two ESFJ tank grrrls came up to me to tell me they thought what I did was a dick move. My worst fear of offending someone came true, and in the end I actually felt good about having offended at least some people. As a leader it’s impossible to make everyone happy and the sooner you can learn to realize that and own it the more effective you will be.

Personally I feel the Samurai Game along with Japanese/samurai ideas on honor is a terrible way to foster personal development. The overarching philosophy runs into direct conflict with what the game tries to get people to learn. It will leave people more confused than anything with no clear path forward steeped in old archaic ideas from a culture that has lost context in the fast paced changing modern world.

Thus “winning” in the end felt bittersweet and reminded me of this scene from Indiana Jones – Raiders of the Lost Ark

knife sword gunfight samurai game

Moral of the story…. Don’t bring a knife to a gun fight.

Addicted to the reasoning mind

Last night my gf and I were talking about this and I think it something we both fall prey too. In some ways it’s a greater human issue as well.

My gf being a natural INFP and having a natural curiosity ABOUT emotions and relationships can get herself caught wondering WHY is that she is feeling a given emotion, and the why for the why to infinity. There is a detriment to this kind of reasoning/intellectual curiosity for quickly it can become about the reasons for the reasons, and then the reasons for the reasons for the reasons, to the point where you are lost in the reasoning mind and have effectively forgot about the emotion in the first place.

The reasoning mind is important but often it’s power is abused and not properly balanced with just plainly moving from one emotion to another. There is a very important distinction here between intellectual curiosity about emotions and emotional curiosity about emotion. The first when dealing with negative emotions will land you in an endless realm of rationalization and ultimately a victim/blame dynamic. The second examines emotions purely on the sensational level, in fact it may be good to put the reasoning mind on hold, and just go into a state of sensation examination. Coming to your senses as it were.

It really is about sensational curiosity and inquiry in the body more than anything. This is an incredibly important skill to learn for it is what makes you present. Too many people are lost in their heads and thoughts contemplating intellectually about how they feel rather than examining emotions themselves purely on an energetic level. This is where people low on the IQ scale have an advantage, their intellectual mind is not as much of a crutch to being lost in rationalizations.

The key to emotional mastery is the ability to transition from one emotion using sensations to another. Finding out the reason for why you have a given negative emotion is good. However 90%+ of the time on a day to day basis it’s not necessary. Understanding the why’s and the reasons is important but not all-important. Ideally a balance or synthesis is struck between the reasoning mind and the emotional felt sensations in the body. In order to break the vicious hold the ego/reasoning mind has on a person, you may need to swing far to the other side to compensate initially.

 

INTJs are the bane of my existence

A bit overly dramatic post title. I could throw ESFJs and ISFJs in there as well.

Recently I got into an debate-argument with an INTJ I know on facebook. If there is one personality type that can make my blood boil it’s INTJs. ESFJs and ISFJs just scare me and put me on anxious edge. The reason I mention them is that I feel there is an underlying issue here in myself that needs to be resolved and I intend to find out what it is by examining these archetypal personality trigger types of mine. Incidentally I seem to get along really well with all other personality types.

All 3 appear to me to be incredibly stubborn and narrow-minded and bring out an inner resistance in me. They all trigger me into dissociation and out of my inner emotions into my rational reasoning mind. With ESFJ’s and ISFJs it tends to be just a freeze response. With INTJ’s my rational/reasoning hamster goes 1000mph.

Every time I attract these people to me I try to use my reasoning mind to figure out what’s happening and I get extremely defensive. Instead I need to tune into my emotional body. Doing this recently I discovered there is an incredible amount of fear there. It evokes a fear of loneliness, social rejection and fear that I’m wrong. I find the last one peculiar and interesting. Why is that at time I fear being wrong? What is it about being wrong that is so scary? I admit to sometimes even realizing it and still arguing my position even in spite of knowing it’s wrong just to be right.

It’s a deep kind of wounding pain to be wrong. It’s like someone there a spear at your gut and you just realized your going to die. I guess maybe that should be the queue that I am dealing with a survival belief. Most people don’t being wrong on little things, but big things that we stake the salvation of our soul as it were are pretty serious. And here again I could blame my Christian upbringing where the belief is that wrong belief could end you up in hell. It seems that on some level I emotionally still react/believe that way.

It’s like that childhood fear that you realized you lied to your parents, and if you were to die in the next second you might end up in hell for eternal suffering. However I feel it is more than that, that is that our deeper beliefs shape our ego and identity. And the threat of our concept of self being torn asunder abstractly may be worse.

At the very base of these fears is an underlying lack of trust in the self and the universe, I feel that in order to resolve these issues of mine I am going to have to learn to draw great strength from the deepest parts of myself.

Because of my unconventional beliefs I have become accustomed to being attacked my entire life. And this is not good. I have learned to just take a beating and not fight back. Violence even verbal has always seemed to me like a futile effort. I felt I could just reason my way to a better place.

Today I tried a new visualization exercise. I imagined I had curious/inquisitive friends that were remarkably intelligent that would help defend me and would support me in my beliefs.  That felt remarkably good so I nurtured that feeling. This seems to work well for me.

I used to think, I don’t need anyone, I can and will take on the world all by myself. My coping mechanism when assaulted was overtly-independent. I feel like I’m out on a limb, and often I have been. Instead I need to emotionally summon support form other aspects of myself from other people and entities and not go it alone with my ego/reasoning mind. I really think this may be the crux of my solution and why it is ISFJ, ESFJ and INTJ types trigger me so harshly. They are out on the overly  independent stand off-ish ego/reasoning mind limb as well, and I feel that they somehow are more secure than me when they are just as frightened but don’t even know it.

INTJs tend to be atheists and I feel they are the crowning achievement of independent ego based existence with ESFJs and ISFJs close behind.

On a psychic level I need to remind myself of the underlying cooperation at the universal level and feel that in a very real way as a supporting super strong foundation that empowers me on deeper levels. The ego has sometimes run away to far, and it needs to connect with other aspects so it doesn’t need to fear.

I need to relax into that feeling of communal support from the civilizations within me and cooperate and imagine more about cooperating with others to change the world.

Edit/Update: (20/03/2014)

Got into another discussion with an INTJ recently that left me feeling unnerved. This time it was a 65 year old woman –  INTJ….not some young punk.

There is something about INTJs combination of over-confidence, stubbornness and dogmatism that royally pisses me off. So I tried figuring out what shadow aspect of myself is it that I am butting up against.

I realized it’s their over-reliance on their intellect and their complete lack of connection to their emotions, inner-self and intuition. This is something I struggle with as well, as an ENTJ I often rely too much on my intellect. This often leaves me feeling powerless. The more I can connect with my emotions and allow it to supply information to my intellect the less INTj’s will be able to piss me off, for I will be conquering my shadow self in this regard.

It’s emotional connection to self that is my bane here and doubly so for INTJs.

The feeling of being violated and the benefits of anger

Last night I had a dream where some movers had come into my house to take my dresser away, and I stopped them before they were to leave to take all my stuff out of the drawers. I didn’t mind them taking the dresser, then it turned into a suitcase and I started taking out all this old clothing (read emotions) I forgot I even had. That was just the top compartment, the bottom was empty to my surprise. I guess maybe this symbolizes the work I had already done.

Then these people were going to take my suitcase away but I got upset because I needed in 2 weeks time to go travelling. Then my dad and his dad (my grandpa) started arguing in their super stubborn ISTJ manner. I got furious and stormed off. Over the last few days I had been arguing with a stubborn woman on the internet who is also an ISTJ about spirituality stuff and the ego specifically.

The second part of the dream dredged up memories I had largely forgotten and repressed. I had gone to my room to find my computer missing and realized my mom had hired a guy to move it to a central location so she could watch my every move online. The guy had also gone through all my personal files and moved things around. This actually happened to me in real-life as a teenager on a few occasions. People helping themselves to things I consider my property/ and or myself.

In the dream i became so rage-full I threw that fat hired guy down on the ground and wimping in the corner as he defiantly defended himself and I gave him the finger. Then I turned on my mother grabbing her by the neck, and thinking I need to take out one of her organs so she can know what it feels like to be totally violated.  The rage I was experiencing was so over-powering it almost immobilized me. I am very inexperienced with anger so when it does come it becomes difficult to contain it. I rarely, very rarely get angry but when I do watch the fuck out. Being an enTj i usually deal with things very rationally and logically.

So I have a problem with people especially chicks taking advantage of me, and this is because I was violated by my parents. (not sexually, but emotional violation all the same) You see my parents are hard-core fundamentalist Christians. They believe things like TV’s are devils boxes and all musical drums are evil because they were used for demon worship in Africa. This is the shit I used to believe when I was a kid.

I have always been a curious person, and questioned my beliefs a lot. I read books like Eckhart Tolle the Power of Now which my parents promptly took away on me under the guise it was “not christian”. Needles to say many of my books would go missing, things would get moved around if a game I played had “magic” in it like World of Warcraft i was not allowed to play. I lived in a very constrained environment where rock music was evil, and my parents violated me in many ways.

My therapist realized this and said one of my primary issues is not being able to feel anger. I thought this was a good thing anger=bad, I’m a better person. But no it’s actually quite unhealthy. Then he had me imagine being a Tiger and mauling my mother. This is the basis of Somatic Psycho-Therapy hence the title of the book that kickstarted this new paradigm shift in psychotherapy named “Waking the Tiger”.

So what to do now about this feeling of violation….My mom had been raped when she was a teenager, but this in itself was probably brought about because she had been violated emotionally by her parents her mother who was an ISFJ. Insecure ISFJ parents are notoriously controlling and emotionally manipulative. So this is a generational issue.

My mom feared/paranoid for my safety when I was a kid, so I picked up internalized much of her anxiety thus attracting situations where people would violate me in small ways. Being a dude and a calculating one at that usually it was nothing every major. Just small emotional things which are much more devious, and can be more effective. Women are particularly adept at these arts because they don’t have force/might on their side. It’s often socially acceptable for women to emotionally manipulate, but unacceptable for boys/men to fight. I mean what are you gonna do punch a woman/mom in the face every time she uses an emotion to get her way??

Hence the creation of a new breed of “beta” supplicating men. Men biologically and now socially are at a disadvantage. This is the cue to adapt and evolve and this means being able to build boundaries using anger if necessary as a momma tiger does to protect her cubs. Except instead of protecting cubs you are protecting yourself. This means becoming  aware of all the subtle little emotional tactics people use to get their way and violate you in almost insignificant ways. Death by a thousand cuts.

My therapist had me try to summon anger, and hold it, stare at people with a glare that says “how dare you intrude on my boundaries”. This is something I REALLY NOT A FUCK TON of practice in. Otherwise these dreams will keep coming back to haunt me.

In essence this all about having respect for your self, your inner-self and your emotions. This is difficult but highly necessary. This is new territory for me, and would be an issue for anyone that had over-bearing fearful insecure parents like mine. They feel powerless so they look for ways to take power away from others for themselves. This however never works. It’s a maladapted way of trying to become secure.

Evil dictators, war mongers suffer from the same kinds of childhood traumas. If children were taught to properly experience and use anger, we wouldn’t have school shootings as all those repressed emotions spill out dangerously. It’s our overly pious insecure christian society that is at fault in my opinion.

So back to resolving this issue for myself. The first thing for me is to become aware of my emotions when I am feeling manipulated/violated. Next is to build and construct anger with integrity in a deep powerful and controlled way. Next is to use it if necessary.

I have to practice feeling anger in my emotional core. Becoming comfortable with it and not disgusted by it. I need to convince myself and my emotions that his is a good method of preserving the sanctity and worth of my own being. So that I can move into anger and out with ease. That i can feel anger and compassion simultaneously. That ideal anger is about protection not about hurting. It’s about creating proper boundaries.

Usually when we see anger in society it’s not the good kind, its the kind that people experience when it’s too late and they already feel powerless and its a fight survival response. the GOAL here is to be able to feel anger even when your survival is not at stake and you are not having a high level of activation. Paradoxically when many people experience anger they are very dissociated form their emotional body. You can see this when someone looks like they have smoke coming out of their ears and their face turns red with rage.

The anger is all in their head! The goal is to have anger coming from the heart like a cold anger that is very present. IN some ways this is more frighting but its a type of anger that you haven’t lost your cool. My therapist showed me how he does and holy shit it looks fucking scary. He old me this is how to do anger in the good way. It’s a don’t mess with me I’m serious look. Mastering the kind of anger and being able to communicate that would do wonders for society in terms of all the repression people engage in and then their top my blow or they develop some crippling disease that’s a drain to themselves and society.

People who I could possibly template good anger from are Samuel Jackson, Denzel Washington or Robert Deniro. INFJ’s are master’s at this. I have to pretend feeling the same way. Practice, practice, practice. This is one for my cheat sheet.

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Response to Miss.ENTJ-friend – Be more like kitteh

I’m somewhat similar to you. I have no problem getting angry, but for me it’s with people I know really well (aka my family). If it’s strangers or people I see rarely I don’t do it as much if ever.

Lol @ making lists. What an ENTJ response. And no this really isn’t about needs, it’s about boundaries. (btw fuck the needs list, use values instead)

The key here is becoming more in tune with your emotions. When around other people, sensing into your body, and being aware of subtle nuances in how other people are making you feel. It really is more so of an introverted feeling (IF) quality where it’s self examination rather than examining rationally external behaviors. (ET)

Both my gf, depressed-friend, and sage-friend react viscerally, and emotionally instantly when they feel a boundary is being crossed. It’s a knee-jerk reaction, complete emotional honesty. Their body language and facial expression covey this, with out the logic mind getting in the way stopping it, rationalizing and then determining a “rational” course of action.

So the key for you( Miss.ENTJ-friend) and me is becoming more introverted feeling “IF” in social relational situations. Also expressing anger emotion WITH the logic. A dirty look, a look of disgust, a flash of anger, with DIRECT eye contact works as well. You could pretend you are your cat, as if someone just stepped on his tail, and the cat then gives that angry glowering controlled emotional look. Cats are actually masters of emotional control, in a logic like manner. Cats aren’t irrationally emotionally reactionary like dogs, they have good emotional boundary response and control.

So to sum up:

  1. Be more Introverted Feeling oriented, SRT style, respond more with controlled emotion
  2. Be more like Cat